January 3 - Can't write again

Boy, what a cold day. Had weird nightmares and got up pretty late. Wanted to write and turned on the old computer, but couldn't write, as I had suspected. I long for their company, but I have this block. Got upset because my number one Hated Writer has published another book which were news that made it to the front page of today's local paper. How can he publish, when I can't? I would creep under a rock and die with shame if I'd written his stuff! I sure wouldn't want to publish anything by that publisher, they must be crazy. I'd wanna publish with a big publishing company! That'd be something.