December 29 - GB jacket

Got the black GB logo jacket I ordered off eBay in Great Britain. It was cheap but good quality, warm and nice. The logo on the back is big and seems solid. I'm wearing it now, together with my gold pendant of course. I still have no GB shoes. I don't think I want any. My boots will have to do. Maybe Slimer shoelace clip-on? That would look... gross.

Was supposed to go clean the kitty farm, but that'll have to wait until tomorrow. There's a snow storm and maybe we can't take off to my parents tomorrow. We might have to wait one more day. They will throw a small birthday party for me.

Ordered five books off Amazon.uk and was happy to find the Fisch novel, which is pretty much sold out everywhere. Then I ordered three more GB books and the "One hit wonderland" by Tony Hawks. I read his book about travelling around Ireland with a fridge and loved it, so I thought I must have the one where he makes a bet (again) that he'll write a top list song. Probably he made it, I don't know.

It's nice with all this snow. The day gets brighter.

December 28 - GB Gold pendant

Today I got my pretty pretty GB gold pendant! It looks so good and I'm very happy to have it. Still baffled no other guy or gal wanted it! I'm gonna wear it forever! Couldn't find a gold chain, so I use a blackened silver chain. It looks okay. Will buy a gold chain when I find such a store.

Was rather tired today. Read a book about Minoan life. Watched an interesting TV-series about five blokes in England who tries out monastery life for four weeks.

Looked at the Internet and I got upset when I saw the RGB fanfic for sale. Why didn't I ever make it into such? I mean, just my art did. The stories I was supposed to illustrate gave me the creeps since I didn't understand them. The texts were so dull and boring and there was no "inner movie". Seldom that happens; no movie.

December 27 - Birthday

Today was my 30th birthday and I got a brand new printer from my boyfriend. That is very good, especially since the old one seems to have lost its mind. Made a nice chocolate cake for my guests, which were my boyfriend's parents. That's about how many friends I have, but I guess I don't want any friends after all. Didn't get any GB stuff! Got some money and a flower from them. We played some boardgame and I got very tired in the end.

Wonder when my GB jacket and gold pendant are gonna show?

December 26 - Sleep

Was very tired and slept all day. So much for this blog entry.

December 25 - this ain't X-mas

Well, today ain't X-mas. Today's when everybody's having a hangover. I too drank yesterday, but I didn't have to drive until today, as we spent the night sleeping at his parent's place. I mustn't drink as I'm on so much medication, but as my shrink put it once, "you gotta live". Speaking of medication, I'm off lithium and poooof went 15 pounds, just like that! Now I'm almost slim again. This is very relieving.

Dared to sneak into forums of the GB site and still there were really irritating posts about new GB songs. I mean, Marbrax? What year was that a new one? I got Bold and published a list of most of my songs. It got rather lengthy, so I think they'll remove it. Boo cares.

Thought about writing my Egonia again, the novel. It's hard, you know. If I just get the flow! I have this barrier the RGB fanfic list put there. I twist and turn to get just one more chapter roughly shaped, but my mind's blank. Now I came up with the idea to put them in a town and just see what'll happen. Something must happen, right? I might poke one of Egon's/Egane's eyes out, if nothing else.

December 24 - Second X-mas

Okay, main X-mas day. We have the Very Important Shows to watch: Donald Duck celebrates Christmas at 3PM. Every X-mas! Every Swede, join in! This Is What We Do!

Second very important show is "Gnomes" by that Dutch guy Rien. The TV-show is as much X-mas as Santa himself. It got off air everywhere in the world in 1987 I think, because of copyright problems. The process got stuck, but I got it off the Internet and can thus watch the very important "Gnomes". Phew! Every Swede demands "Gnomes" on X-mas and few gets it.

The third very important show is the RGB "X-mas marks the spot", of course! As I can play it on DVD now, it was easy to pluck out and play. Not like my frantic search among piles and heaps of RGB tapes, exclaiming "it's GONE!" and finding the tape in the old video recorder some horrid moments later.

I was very disappointed that my new large logo GB jacket didn't show in the mail, nor did my precious GB logo 3D gold pendant. I wanted to be pretty this X-mas, but I hope I'll get the gold pendant on my birthday, the 27th. I give myself the prettiest presents, don't I?

In the car I played "X-mas marks the spot", the different audiotape version. It's very good! Peter's so sad and sweet. We didn't leave until 5PM to go to my boyfriend's parents. We played some boardgames, didn't eat until 11PM and didn't get to open any presents until the next day, after midnight! How totally strange. This is because his Mom was working. Not Peter's Mom, of course.

NOTHING 'busters! Okay, I got some stuff with skulls on them and a book about Hell, but 'busters? I'm shocked! Is it because I kinda have everything already? I was sure I was gonna get the new GB novel! Got a weird flashing thing that projected colors in the ceiling. Then I got one of the best books I know by Sykes, about DNA, which I read many times. But no 'busters stuff...?

December 23 - First X-mas

Today we went to my boyfriend's sister to celebrate X-mas. Well, X-mas (as any RGB fan would put the abbreviation) is messed up nowadays. Any normal X-mas celebration is on December 24 around here. We do it two days in a row. First this place, then away to another place next day. More about that tomorrow.

Gave away some, got some. Well, a fridge magnet and bedsheets I got. That was nice. Nothing 'busters about it, though.

Had the Ben CD blaring in the speakers of the car as we went. No snow, no X-mas songs! Made use of my new digital camera. It's rather good. Thought I'd take photos of everything new that's GB around the house, but as my site's so uninteresting, no one would care if I upload. Besides, I overused eBay and such sites, so I'm absolutely packed with GB stuff. I have a big bag full of most of my action figures in the kitchen, there's stuff in every cupboard and wardrobe, in every room, in every corner! In every car, even. At least the one I've got. Tomorrow maybe I'll get the GB novel I was planning to buy. If I don't, I get it off Amazon proton. I mean "pronto". I taught my keyboard fingers too well.

December 22 - The X-mas gift

Noticed that Someone who accurately said my site was www.ghostbusters.se and referred to the GB songs of PKE Online long ago. This I found very strange, as my site gets no hits, and no one knows or cares that I advertised it as being www.ghostbusters.se for almost a year. Reading on the GB forum this Someone said that the songs I collected was like Christmas. It made me remember that I, long ago, said I'd give them away to someone. Today I did give them away, as an X-mas gift. Well, and the nice RUN DMC Ghostbusters II video as a clip.

I find it very strange that I'm ignored, more or less, when I point out how many songs I got. I mean, they go "I've got five!" or such, and I wonder why on earth a hundred Ghostbusters song doesn't make one single soul just drool? Is music that boring? Don't they want them? Why don't they even wanna listen to them once? No one asked me for ONE clip!

Gosh, now I got upset. It's Ray who makes me say "gosh". Hope the X-mas present gets there safe and sound. It might brighten up Someone's Christmas.

December 21 - Ben CD!

This is so great! I found and received the Ben CD on eBay, the first he made with his band Bend, and it's EXCELLENT! I love it to death! It's like you wanna jump around and scream. It's wonderful to have Egon singing for a good hour. He's got the best singing voice! Not Maurice. Now I really see why they didn't make Ben do the "singing in the bathtub scene" and instead kept Maurice. Ben can't be a bad singer even if he tries! Giggle!

It's an experimental album, with all kinds of styles I like. We've got screaming-on-top-of-voice-death-metal, popish, funkish, grungeish, punkish, rockish, everything! Then there's a girl singing and she's got a dusk smokey voice that's great, too! Even my boyfriend said the CD's very good.

Guess if I wanna get the rest of the LPs and CDs Ben's made off his site? But no, he doesn't take VISA! He want some kind of money order. I'm very bothered by this. Maybe we can ask my boyfriend's uncle's cousin to help. My wishes are getting more and more strange...

December 20 - Egonia

Trying to start writing a novel again, which I began four years ago. It was just some 15 pages at the time, but I've been writing patiently and have reached 50 pages the last coupla days. As I want to publish something and the crappiest novels are fantasy novels, it's easier to succeed if I write such, right? I do have some earlier experience by writing an awful lot of RGB stories and surely I pick out the bits and parts I like most...

The thing is, of course I wanna write about the 'busters! What do we do, but take a pair of 'busters and make them main characters? Clever, eh? Sort of. Egon's in it and we've got Peter the werewolf. I love werewolves. I wrote such a novel before and can do it again. Don't know if lycanthropes are okay in fantasy novels, so I made Egon an elf. Hah! I kill myself. This is very amusing. It's called "The journey to Egonia".

My boyfriend says it's sure to be published, or he'll start up his own publishing firm. He can't take that Egon's called Egane and Peter's called Petor, but he thinks I can get around the character theft as they don't quite look nor behave the same. Then I made Petor come from Lupusvill and my boyfriend said "Hey, now everybody's gonna know it's RGB!" and I went "You've been RGB poisoned real good. You think someone's gonna remember some odd eighties animated series show and a town, Lupusville, in that one episode?" and he declared I was right.

The hard bit is that the RGB fanfic list did a very very good job to make me gun shy about writing stories. I pace much more than I write. Sneakily I borrowed Egon and Peter, so I HOPE it will lead to being able to write at least one itty bitty RGB story again. That's the best thing life's got to offer, isn't it?

December 19 - Golden GB charm

Got the genuine autographed photo of Ben Völz, my special little Egon. It's on my bedstand now. The eBay bastard charged 6 euro for the stamps, when it should be barely 1 euro, but I didn't make a fuss about it. There's one one out for bidding, but I can't have two! Must... fight... bidding. The other one is the stern version with a black autograph, while I got the smiling Ben with a silver autograph. Someone bid for that other one. I'll let him have it. Nice someone wants it.

Was a brave girl and asked about that charm pendant made of gold, if maybe the auctioneer could make an exception and let me bid? He said he was gun shy about people outta the States as he got tricked once, but made the exception, and I won! I paid immediately and I hope I'll get the charm before X-mas. Miracles have happened, right?

December 6 - wanna write!

Alone today. Thought about writing, but sure enough it was impossible. Drawing - I totally quit. They don't like my RGB, so I don't do any. Every day I wish I could write and draw RGB, but how? All the flashbacks! No way. They sure knew how to throw me down a dark empty pit.

Read about Dave Peltzer's brother Richard. He too grew up in hell, like his sibling. Can read some, as long as it's not too much politics. Quit playing World of Warcraft. My latest avatar, Venkman, is put to rest - just like Égon. Don't think I'll be doing it again.

Man, how I wish I could write RGB! It was the best thing, except for watching an episode I never saw, and as I've seen all of them it's down to writing. Lonely here, just me and a few beers. Playing a Nena CD, having ordered a Ben autograph and his first CD from eBay. Lucky me - I found it, finally! Noting GB to bid for, except some golden charm that wouldn't be shipped to Europe. It's always that problem. There are more nice watches and maybe I'll buy one that you can dive while wearing. My current GB watch is nice enough, so maybe I won't bid.

As I said, it's quite lonely. Tomorrow I'll be getting my digital camera and I'll try take nice RGB experimental photos. That's tomorrow. Today's beer evening.

December 5 - 16 years of GB

Remembered I wrote six chapters about some girl, which included Peter and Egon in a somewhat altered version. It was supposed to be a novel, but I didn't get very far. As I'm to go to China, I got some strength to at least look at the four year old story. It didn't seem too bad. Maybe I can continue it some day.

I really loved the Tim Burton "The corpse bride", which I saw on Saturday. Imagine he'd make an RGB animated movie, just like that one.

It's been so many years since GB came out, 21 years. On December 2nd I had loved and collected GB for sixteen years. More than half my life! That's something.

December 4 - Why's GB dying?

I wish it wouldn't be so. I really wish! The GBs are dying. Everywhere, across the world. I can't do anything to contribute in order to make it survive. I can't create at all. Not that it would help. I have no imagination anymore. They stole it away from me! I hate them. You know who.

Bought six "Gnomy" gnomes by Rien, the Dutch, in a local store. I've been looking for them for years! There are three more on an internet auction. I'll try bid for them and win.

December 3 - China

I asked my Mom to go to China with me in March and she said yes. Isn't that exciting? Maybe I'll be doing the "Egon does..." thing. Well, and have her tell me I'm 30 and shouldn't play with kid's toys. Especially not on the China wall.